Unleash.

Are rules meant to be broken?

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 23:31:41 +0000

A list of 9 rules I’ve broken:

1. I’ve left studying to the last night even though – I knew this would never work, but I still promise anyway – I promise not to leave things to the last day/night.

2. I’ve crossed the street when the light was red.

3. I still spell weird, believe, and other odd words incorrectly.

4. I broke my lent promise 2 hours after making it – so much for not watching TV for 40 days and nights.

5. On a related topic, I do remember promising to read the Bible every day…

6. I really don’t want to Google this – I know a few of the previous “rules” were actually “promises” – so I’m just thinking off the top of my head but… I’ve cheated on tests (in elementary school!) before.

7. I’ve lied. No biggie there.

8. As a general rule in university, you’re not supposed to Facebook or play games if you bring a laptop to class. Which I usually don’t… but I play Hearts.

9. I was a vegetarian for 4 years. That was the ultimate rule I’ve broken. But more on that journey later.

- C

Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 23:08:17 +0000

“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be. ” John Wooden

I’m scared of failure. Often, I avoid opportunities for succes (and by association, failure) because I don’t want to feel hurt or rejected. But even when I do try and reach for it, I still don’t always succeed. I know it’s that way for a lot of people, but it hurts when you try hard and others (re: childhood frenemy + smart ROP girl) easily acheive what you worked hard only to get rejected for.

Why should I embrace failure? Why should I constantly put myself in environments when my spirits get crushed and my enthusiasm rejected? There’s the saying “It’s only a failure if you learn nothing from it” but rejection is rejection – and it sucks.

Failure one: Peer Health Educator at my school

- Sure, it’s not a job but I really did want to be a part of a community of students with shared goals and interests. Yes, that sounds fluffy and rehearsed, but it’s entirely true. Just thinking about it makes me depressed. If I can’t even get accepted for a campus volunteer position at my school, then what am I really fit for? Nothing.

I don’t know. I could sit here and write about all the other things I’ve failed at recently but it seems pointless. I fully appreciate what my social psychology professor meant when he said that, if you’re angry or upset, the best thing to do is write it down until you get all the feelings out.

Nevertheless, the only way for me to get around failure is to believe that maybe I wasn’t suited for that particular position, to re-evaluate my habits and make some conscious changes, and to hope that something better will come along for me in the future.

- C

Winter Wonder

fearlessdamsel — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 19:10:38 +0000

Winter. My favourite season. I tmight have something to do with the fact that both my birthday and Christmas are in the winter months. I know I like the snow. So cool and calm, even in the frost. I can’t wait for the snow! Hope it comes soon (though it’s not likely- last year we didn’t get any snow until late Jan).

My favourite things about winter:

- Snowball fights with friends, family, and my brother

- Walking down the street in my warm jacket when it’s in the negatives

- Setting up the Christmas tree

- My birthday!

- Driving by houses with gorgeous, bizarre, and outrageous Christmas decorations

A beautiful sight,
We’re happy tonight.
Walking in a winter wonderland.

- C

Glimpse

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 04:32:52 +0000

I look out the window and see blackness. My reflection stares back at me. I see the posters attached to the walls of my brightly lit room. My face is a blur.

I look away.

- C

Challenge: 7 word story

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 04:29:35 +0000

The wrinkled pickle became a respected actor.

- C

My 7 favourite sounds

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 04:23:53 +0000

They are:

- My cat breathing

- The ripping of a paper

- The clicks of a keyboard

- The melody my TV makes when it turns on and off

- A yawn

- A laugh

- The sound of a nail clipper in action

- C

My Perfect Imperfections

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 04:14:16 +0000

I’ve seen many beauty gurus on Youtube do this tag; I thought I would write a post about it. The TAG was created by guru Andreaschoice. The premise is simple. List three things you like about yourself and three things you don’t. These things aren’t noticeable to others most of the time- these “perfect imperfections” are things that you nitpick about.

Three things I dislike about myself:

- My acne ridden and acne scarred face

- My teeth- crooked, stained, and gross

- My chubby fingers

Three things I like about myself:

- The thickness of my hair- though it is frizzy at best, a wild jungle at worst, it is still something that I like. I know a lot of people have thinning hair that falls out easily. I lose a lot of hair in the shower (eek!) but I still have a full head of hair.

- The whiteness of my nails. Maybe it is poor circulation, but my nails are unusually white compared to others. People have complimented my nails, saying they look naturally manicured.

- My cheeks. They aren’t too chubby or thin. My face is a bit round, but I like the way my cheeks puff when I smile.

Embrace your perfect imperfections. They make you you.

- C

If money didn’t matter…

fearlessdamsel — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 04:01:43 +0000

If money didn’t matter, what job of career would you go for?

The cliché choices:

- Writer

- Animal activist

- Secret Shopper

- What’s the job called where you do nice things for others without their knowledge? (or maybe that’s wishful thinking)

- Marry someone rich! I know, that comes with a whole set of new problems…

Frankly, I don’t think I would do a great job with any of those choices. Right now, I’m not sure what I and good at and what I suck at, what I like and what I can’t stand. I haven’t experienced enough of the world so I cannot say what I would like to do with my life, regardless of money or not.

I know that if money did not matter, I would forgo grad school. I might stay a student at university for as long as I possibly could. I might also not be a Biology Major.

That’s a lot of might’s.

Most of all, I want a job where I can be happy. For now, these are the things I would like in a career:

- good location, close by

- and office-y job

- teamwork with others

- a job where I can help people, be it in subtle or obvious ways

- a job where I can be creative

I know I keep using the word “job” and it is different from a career, but I haven’t found a path that I could see myself following for the rest of my life. I tire easily. I am restless.

Possibly an editor. That is my pick today.

- C

Random Topic: Accomplish!

fearlessdamsel — Wed, 17 Nov 2010 16:55:06 +0000

Prompt: One thing you must accomplish today is…

To finish all, (yes all) of my statistics homework. Every last part of every last question of every last page of every last section.

Jai You! Add Oil!

- C

Random Topic: 10 reasons why

fearlessdamsel — Wed, 17 Nov 2010 16:52:45 +0000

Prompt: Brainstorm 10 reasons why you need to write right now.

Ichi- I am killing time before my writing editorial group

Ni- I wanted to comment on the punny prompt.

San- I am in the library and am too lazy to sign out a statistics textbook.

Yon- It is fun to write numbers in Japanese!

Go- I just found out that Go was five, not four. Speechless.

Roku- Everyone else in the library is doing something productive. I might as well contribute to this movement.

Nana- I can say that I’m doing school work. Writing is part of my writing course. Blog posts count, though no one from my class will ever read this.

Hachi- The guy that sits beside me keeps turning his head to look at what I’m typing. The font is light. He cannot tell.

Kyu- I feel bad for not posting something up since October.

Ju- I want to get rid of the –ING verbs I keept using. Adverbs are not attractive!

- C